Yesterday

Yesterday I went to geylang! Yay, but only for awhile. Will be going next week again! At night I went to NUH hospital to meet my mums bestfriend. She had stroke /; hais..

I wore fake lashes yesterday. But  there's not big difference



Prelims.Studies.Emotionally.Toddler

I'v been busy with prelims. Studies. I've done my English prelims, Math paper 1 and CPA paper2 (practical). I hope I'll pass my prelims and pass my N's even better.

And also I've been emotionally sad and didn't had the mood to blog and talked. I am trying not to talked to him. I have to be strong. And focus on my studies and after all that done. I can come back to him. He doesn't even care if I loved him still  I don't know why. Every steps I take. It's like the wrong way and I always regret it. Well, I don't regret of him being my boyfriend before. I appreciate a lot.

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My wallpaper on my phone. Thats him while his a toddler. Really adorable. Still look alike hasn't change that much. But now his more to good-looking. I prefered putting this pciture of him because whenever I unlock my phone. My heart doesn't feel the pain that he did to me.

Hais. Okay Goodnight. Shall blog another time.

I wrote it using my right hand.

Just a short one. I posted this at twitter too! haha.. I wrote this with my right hand:3333  because I'm a left hander! <3<3<3<3 thumbs up for left handed!:P



I want to go geylang again!

Yesterday I went to go geylang at 9p.m and it wasn't as crowded cause it's on weekdays. And I bought one of my baju raya! Which I can't wait to wear them. Really, I'm very pump to wear those. Now I'm waiting for my tailor made baju kurung and another one which I have to buy it. Using the same as my mum. I bought 200g dendeng for myself! it cost $12 but still it wasn't enough for me. I want to go geylang again. And make sure to buy dendeng again! :B

I loveeeeee Ramadhan! Plus Raya<3



About him

Okay yes another post. I talked to him last Thursday, somehow I irritate him;/ I just wanted to know why must he ignore me. Trying so hard to avoid me. Lastly he answered. I don't want to tell. Cause then it'll hurts.. Those sentence is stuck in my mind and it kept repeating in my mind, my confidence of course went down.. Counted as today too. It's been four days I tried not to talked to him. I know it's not a big deal for anyone else. But for me, of course it is. Trying to ignore someone you liked or loved reallyyyy hard, tough, suffer so much words can describe that feeling right? Not being able to meet him not talked to him.. It's not good really. I've haven't heard anything about him. It worries me. I want to know wether his doing fine. I talked about him everyday. I dreamed about him. Staring at me holding my hands while crying. The same dream all over again. Weird isn't it?



Saturday..

Saturday met my cousins but without kakak baiyinah. We talked a lot. Break fast together. I don't share stories. I don't want to share it. Next Saturday my cousins will be coming to my house and break fast together! YAY!:'3 hahah there's nothing to be happy about it.



Only a friend of mine..

Yesterday I didn't talk to him. I had to try to ignore him, eventhough I can't. Well then everyday I'll just talk to him through my heart. I don't know wether he loves me still, worry about me, missed me. You know what, I hope it happen. But then I guess he won't. Perasaan je. I can only watch his pictures like every other girls do. Talk about him to others how much I miss him like other girls do too. Thinking how is he now?, have he eaten?, hows his day? like every other girls. Wishing his mine like what boys/girls do when their madly in love. And there's other things to that can relief me. Is our cute memories:'3 even it's a happy one. I will cry, cry,cry,cry and cry again.. When will I get to meet him again? I don't know only allah knows. Even if he reads this he wouldn't even care anymore. Now, I'm not his first priority anymore that he use too. Scared of losing me. End up. I lose him..