About him

Okay yes another post. I talked to him last Thursday, somehow I irritate him;/ I just wanted to know why must he ignore me. Trying so hard to avoid me. Lastly he answered. I don't want to tell. Cause then it'll hurts.. Those sentence is stuck in my mind and it kept repeating in my mind, my confidence of course went down.. Counted as today too. It's been four days I tried not to talked to him. I know it's not a big deal for anyone else. But for me, of course it is. Trying to ignore someone you liked or loved reallyyyy hard, tough, suffer so much words can describe that feeling right? Not being able to meet him not talked to him.. It's not good really. I've haven't heard anything about him. It worries me. I want to know wether his doing fine. I talked about him everyday. I dreamed about him. Staring at me holding my hands while crying. The same dream all over again. Weird isn't it?



Saturday..

Saturday met my cousins but without kakak baiyinah. We talked a lot. Break fast together. I don't share stories. I don't want to share it. Next Saturday my cousins will be coming to my house and break fast together! YAY!:'3 hahah there's nothing to be happy about it.



Only a friend of mine..

Yesterday I didn't talk to him. I had to try to ignore him, eventhough I can't. Well then everyday I'll just talk to him through my heart. I don't know wether he loves me still, worry about me, missed me. You know what, I hope it happen. But then I guess he won't. Perasaan je. I can only watch his pictures like every other girls do. Talk about him to others how much I miss him like other girls do too. Thinking how is he now?, have he eaten?, hows his day? like every other girls. Wishing his mine like what boys/girls do when their madly in love. And there's other things to that can relief me. Is our cute memories:'3 even it's a happy one. I will cry, cry,cry,cry and cry again.. When will I get to meet him again? I don't know only allah knows. Even if he reads this he wouldn't even care anymore. Now, I'm not his first priority anymore that he use too. Scared of losing me. End up. I lose him..  



Selamat Berpuasa!

As you all know. Tomorrow is the first day of puasa! :3 YAY! hehe. Tonight solat terawih.. I'm sooo exicted cause fasting is here and when one month is up! There goes Hari Raya! Later must wake up for sahur.. Attend school as pernormal. But later in my class comfirm there will be stupid nonsense making a reason saying "I don't want to play fasting seh" "Today I never fasting because I never wake up for sahur" all the stupid reasons every year! Grow up. You guys are old enough to handle fasting right. Hais! Nevermind it's them. Not me. Hopefully I puasa full month. Insya'allah. My mum says "puase tak boleh sedih,tak boleh marah, tak boleh rase dengki kat orang, tak boleh pegang lelaki and tak boleh nagis atau pun makimaki"

I always remind that to myself whenever I'm fasting.

So Selamat Berpuasa untuk orang islam semue! :3 *in advance:P*

Racial Harmony Day!

Yesterday my school celebrated Racial Harmony Day! :3 well I wore the same baju kurung as my twin sister. Got a lot of compliment from others.. The performance at school was not as great as I expected. But, the most fun part was the last performance. The indian teacher sang chammak challo? Freaking hilarious! Everyone started laughing soo hard! even me:3 Yaa. I know it's not good to laugh at someone. But really it was really funny! Memorable :P but the P.A was the spoiler! Mic couldn't use, spoiled! TSK! Mr.Chew buy new microphones lah. So troublesoome ah. Always got problem with the mic-..- Well at least I had fun yesterday. Tomorrow is my English prelim papers! Wish me luck! ;)

Gnight. To Al-Imran Shah too:)



No. I can't

No really. I'm trying to ignore him too. But I really can't. How? That feeling sucks cause even though you talk to him so much, he won't be replying you. It's hurts so much. Because he isn't yours anymore. I hate the stupid fact when theres break up, they don't talk anymore acting like a fucking damn stranger.. Why? Can't we just be normal as a friend before? Try. Try to get use to it. You say you had the feeling and sense that I missed you so much. Then why don't you just reply me then..  

He made my day.

YES! He replied me(': God I'm sooooo happy. No one knows how happy I am really. OHMYGOD. He really makes my day. I just try my best to bring you back in my life. Change myself and make you happy. Insya'allah Amin. I  LOVE YOU IMRAN:'3 really I do. OHMYGOD I'M FREAKING HAPPY.

My crush:3 SHH!



Abah's birthday

Yesterday was my father's birthday and he turn to 48 years old. We celebrated as pernormal. There's cake and a huge meal we had. He looks happy as his children still remembers his birthday (: Well then I'm happy. The place that we eat was so quiet. And the food is not that nice but the satay was freaking damn tasty. I'm looking forward to go there again with my family to eat the satay there (:

I'm not going to post every of the photos.

Yeah.



Goodnight

I don't understand what happen. I don't know what else to say to him. I don't know how to apologise anymore. My friends asked me to move on. You know what? I feel like slapping their face. Do they think moving on is so easy? They say theres other better guys out there. But they don't know how imran really is. How nice, patient,sweet,loving,confident,happy he is towards me, make me feel like I'm the prettiest girl, built up my confidence and brings me joy every moment. He treats me the way I want too. And I'm not giving up so fast..

Goodnight cuteboy.

School again.

Yes. School again. 4:30 alarm sound so noisy and irritated till I got up. 5:30 leave the house. Sit in the bus like for 1hour 30mins and then arrived school at 7 and from there school starts. How I wish school ends and will be meeting him at the library like before. Nervous all the time. Check my attire and my hair. I want to have that feeling back again. But how? I messed things up. Yah oppa, I hope I get over this problem and get back to you. Insya'allah.



Birthday.

Yesterday I had a lot of fun. Really. It was my nieces and nephew birthday. Theres three huge cake and it was beautifully decorated but you know. I HATE CAKES. I don't eat cake only for some of them. There were games and who won gets a prize. I wanted too, but I'm very shy so instead I just watch the kids play, it was so hilarious. There were goodies too! :B Ya I love goodies. Well. Who doesn't right?

Strong?

Talking to him hurts because of his painful words. Ignore him hurts even more then I expected. Being ignored by your so called crush or either your love, it hurts really badly. Even if you tried your best in doing things to make him feel better or make him smile. Let me say, it is not the easiest thing to do. Kept quiet and remember such painful words that he said, is a torture. Even if you say you're sad and he won't be doing anything, that makes it like you're invisible. Looking at his picture every night talking to him is only the best thing. Because he doesn't hear what you say and won't even say any hurtful words towards you. Being happy every single day wanted to go home and just want to talk to him, felt wonderful. But when the conversation goes the pain comes back. Even if it hurts you so much. I bet you don't feel lonely in the inside. Kept asking when his free and seems like he turn it down everytime you asked, you then just have to try harder then you expected. Missing him and  want to feel the warmth hug again and you know that you won't be getting anymore. Seeing him say "Goodbye" to you. It felt like this world is ending. 

Girl you just have to stay strong then.



Wasn't focus.

Today school was all normal. Friends and teachers. But for studies.. I wasn't focusing at all till my English teacher kindda scolded me cause I wasn't listening to him and was thinking something else.. I didn't know what happen to me. But I just couldn't focus today. Hard to absorb things in my mind. I need to focus. Prelim and Nlevel is really close. Have to buck up on topics and subjects that I'm lack in.



Recent picture

HEHE. His recently new picture. So cute! His new hairstyle. I call it "Chicken Little hair style" I know it's lame but, whatever. Talk to him still, but he doesn't seems as happy as before. Tried my best to make him smile but ended up making him angry and we start into a fight again. Stupid me! Whatever I do, it isn't right. I'm getting tired of myself. His concentrating on his O's and I am concentrating on my N's. After that all is over. BAM! I'm going to steal his heart back:3 Need skills okay. It hard to please his heart. Going to get him back in my life. He makes my days wonderful each day even though theres a horrible fight between us.

Prelim's?

Okay everybody prelim's timetable is out! Get ready cause I'm FREAKING NERVOUS LOOKING AT THOSE DATES AND SUBJECTS. I'm still lacking at some topics at every subjects. I forgot Math and Science fomular. I'm going to asked Mr.Aidil my math teacher to tell me all the fomular for Math and I'll write it down and KEEP THAT IN MIND! cause I keep forgetting it. As for Science I'll asked help from my favourite chairman:P Syafiee. Hahah. Really his good at Science. Today, I didn't concentrate at any class lessons. I was buzy reading "THiS iS MY STORY"

This book is by Kasandra Kong an ex-yusoffians. Such an interesting book. Love it. Have to stop reading it at my lesson time. Instead read it on reccess time.